Ch, Ch, Ch, Changes

So like I said alot of things are happening in my life...but hey life is about constantly changing right???
-“The key to change... is to let go of fear"
-"The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live"
-"Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever"
-"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference"
-"Change is the essence of life.Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become"
-"Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely"
- “People underestimate their capacity for change. There is never a right time to do a difficult thing"
                                                             
                                                             MY CHANGES
I got a new phone, the iphone 4 and I am ADDICTED!!! I also got a new phone #, but that is not going online. I moved back home with the parents, for the time being, and in order to save up money and decide on my next step. Wow, I haven't lived at home with my parents and sisters since I was 18...It's not bad at all though, me and my mom are alot closer now, she's one of my best friends. My 13 year old sister is a very sweet kid and I love getting the chance to hang out with her more, she's also one of my best friends.

I've been trying to eat healthier and lose a few pounds because I gained about 12 pounds in the last year and I've been doing pretty good at losing weight just by eating better but I decided to join a gym so I can get myself toned and ready for bikini season! I joined Core Fitness and I love it so far! I've lost 10 pounds and I would be at my goal weight if I lose 2 more pounds but I want to continue to eat healthier and workout because it makes me feel so much better, and who doesn't wanna feel better and look good!
http://www.thecore247.com/

I got a new tattoo and piercing, I know you think I've gone wild right?? But I've already got one tattoo and I have been wanting my Tragus pierced since I was in highschool! Like I said this is about making myself happy and I'm happy with both!



I also have a new hair color thanks to my sister Lisa. She always does the highlighting on my hair and I think she does a great job!  My two best friends in the world Misty and Mandi have been keeping me busy by going out and having a good time everytime I have a chance. They are the best, I know they are just trying to keep me busy so I won't get lonely. I love theses girls!

I found another book that I thought would be interesting that I just started reading, "Not Your Mother's Divorce" by Kay Moffett, it's basically about women who get divorced in their 20's-30's who don't have children or lots of baggage with their ex's and who want to "start over" with their life...sounds like the perfect book for me.

just starting it, but I will let you know how it is. That's all for now, until next time...

One day at a time...

My life is a mess right now. I am working on getting a divorce from a relationship that has lasted 7 years and a marriage of 2 1/2 years. I never thought I would be getting a divorce, especially at 23 years old, but a girl can only take so much. My friend from work, Sara, told me I should read this book "It's called a Breakup because it's Broken" by Greg Behrendt.

I thought it was a great, self help book on breaking up. I will quote it a few times on here.
 Here goes quote #1
"I've been the girl so in love with a person incapable of giving me what I needed out of a relationship that I not only married him but gladly gave away every last shred of my self-esteem to keep him. I've been the girl who not only suffers through an unhealthy, demoralizing relationship but then goes back to it in hopes that time spent apart has inspired him to love me enough to change...or even try. And guess what? It didn't. I've been consumed with despair, confusion, anger-truly devastated by the end of a relationship that I thought was going to last forever."
This sounds just like me and this relationship for the past 2 years. I feel like I put 200% of myself and my tears towards a relationship that only has gotten worse. Yes there were good times, there were great times, I won't deny that but the past 2 years have been a constant struggle and have just exhausted me physically, mentally, and emotionally. This is why I am in great need of a change in a BIG way. It's not gonna be easy, I know that, it's gonna be painful, but a lot of the pain that I'm experiencing now is fear of not knowing what's ahead. This leads me to quote #2.
"We become attached to what's familiar and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable even if they're bad for us. We're afraid of the unknown. So take a deep breath, and realize that this is going to hurt for a while. There is no quick remedy for the powerful sting of heartbreak."
 That's it for now, I'm gonna take this one day at a time and leave you with my theme song for the time being: "Quittin You" by The Band Perry.

I don't know what I was thinking,

You were no good but you could do some fancy talking
I know your tricks and delight for a Gumball Machine (nooo...)
You can keep your quarter man 'cause you won't get nothing sweet out of me

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quitting), quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a girl wants her chocolate, yeah, I know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting you

I don't know what the heck you were thinking
It's gonna, gonna take a better man, I'm bettin, to win my hand,
I'm not gonna play your game, I don't like the high stakes,
I'd rather sit alone at home playin one more round of, Oh man

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quittin)g, quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a gambler leaving Vegas, boy, you know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting

Cold turkey, giving you the cold shoulder,
Off, like a band-aid, one quick sting, then it's over

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and the good lord won't have it,
You're my bad habit and I'm quitting you, you, yeah yeah yeah