One day at a time...

My life is a mess right now. I am working on getting a divorce from a relationship that has lasted 7 years and a marriage of 2 1/2 years. I never thought I would be getting a divorce, especially at 23 years old, but a girl can only take so much. My friend from work, Sara, told me I should read this book "It's called a Breakup because it's Broken" by Greg Behrendt.

I thought it was a great, self help book on breaking up. I will quote it a few times on here.
 Here goes quote #1
"I've been the girl so in love with a person incapable of giving me what I needed out of a relationship that I not only married him but gladly gave away every last shred of my self-esteem to keep him. I've been the girl who not only suffers through an unhealthy, demoralizing relationship but then goes back to it in hopes that time spent apart has inspired him to love me enough to change...or even try. And guess what? It didn't. I've been consumed with despair, confusion, anger-truly devastated by the end of a relationship that I thought was going to last forever."
This sounds just like me and this relationship for the past 2 years. I feel like I put 200% of myself and my tears towards a relationship that only has gotten worse. Yes there were good times, there were great times, I won't deny that but the past 2 years have been a constant struggle and have just exhausted me physically, mentally, and emotionally. This is why I am in great need of a change in a BIG way. It's not gonna be easy, I know that, it's gonna be painful, but a lot of the pain that I'm experiencing now is fear of not knowing what's ahead. This leads me to quote #2.
"We become attached to what's familiar and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable even if they're bad for us. We're afraid of the unknown. So take a deep breath, and realize that this is going to hurt for a while. There is no quick remedy for the powerful sting of heartbreak."
 That's it for now, I'm gonna take this one day at a time and leave you with my theme song for the time being: "Quittin You" by The Band Perry.

I don't know what I was thinking,

You were no good but you could do some fancy talking
I know your tricks and delight for a Gumball Machine (nooo...)
You can keep your quarter man 'cause you won't get nothing sweet out of me

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quitting), quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a girl wants her chocolate, yeah, I know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting you

I don't know what the heck you were thinking
It's gonna, gonna take a better man, I'm bettin, to win my hand,
I'm not gonna play your game, I don't like the high stakes,
I'd rather sit alone at home playin one more round of, Oh man

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quittin)g, quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a gambler leaving Vegas, boy, you know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting

Cold turkey, giving you the cold shoulder,
Off, like a band-aid, one quick sting, then it's over

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and the good lord won't have it,
You're my bad habit and I'm quitting you, you, yeah yeah yeah