A New Attitude

So June's almost over, half of 2011 is past us and so much has changed in my life already. I'm sure it's only the beginning though-and i'm okay with that because life is about changes and there's no use in stressing about them. So to update you on me and my life...

At the beginnig of the month I did have some people who were putting me down and trying to make me feel bad for getting divorced and moving on with my life but I decided that people like that are unimportant in my life and i'm not gonna let them break my spirit or waste my time on them. There are plenty of people in my life that love me and just want me to be happy and they are the ones worth my time!

I found out i didn't get accepted into MUW's RN program :( They said they had alot of applicants and had to turn away people that had everything and since I didn't have that nutrition class already taken, that didn't help me out. So I decided to drop the nutrition class because that's $600 that I can use for other bills, etc... It kind of sucked that i didn't get in but i have other options. My plan now is to apply at Bevill State Community College in Fayette, AL and at Shelton State Community College in Tuscaloosa, AL. I believe everything happens for a reason and it will definately be ALOT cheaper if I can get into a program at a community college. So i will be filling out applications for Shelton and Bevill in the mean time. Their programs don't start until January, so I have a little while to go.

I have a new boyfriend who's name is Neil! I've known him for a couple of years and always thought he was a nice guy and soooo funny! I never thought I would be dating him but its just another surprise life has thrown at me and one I'm very happy about! No he's not perfect, no one is-he has a bit of a past but i feel like he has learned from it and i think i was put in his life for a reason, to help him stay on the right track and and be a better person! I also feel like he was put in my life for a reason. He makes me so happy! I love spending time with him. He pretty much keeps a smile on my face :)and thats what its all about because if the person your with doesn't make you completely happy then why be with them??? And one of the first things i said when i started this blog was that its about finally making ME happy for a change! So although he's not perfect, he's close enough to perfect for me :)

A friend that i work with decided to start a book club and i joined! There are 4 of us in the book club and we all work together. Right now we are reading "Major Pettigrew's Last Stand"

I am also reading "Lies That Chelsea Handler Told Me" for my own Addiction to Chelsea Handler books!

I just got back from a much needed vacation at Orange Beach, AL. I had a wonderful time with family and friends-it was so good to get away! I absolutely LOVE going to the beach and soaking up the sun!!!

Well i guess thats it for now. I can't wait to spend this weekend with my boyfriend!

 So until next time...

The D word...

So it's been a little while since my last post, I've been busy with LIFE! I finished my last Chelsea Handler book, and it was just as funny as the other two! I was able to get into that Nutrition class at MUW that I needed, it's an online class that starts May30th and only goes through July 2nd-so one step closer to the RN program,Yay! Just keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that they accept me as long as I pass this class! Should find out by June 1st I believe. Last week I read "Water for Elephants" and it was a really good book!

Can't wait to go see the movie because my favorite actor, Robert Pattinson is the leading man!!!

So the big news for this post is that I am now a Divorced woman...the divorce was finalized May 2, 2011. Although it's kinda bittersweet I am glad its over. I never wanted to be a "statistic" for divorce rates, nor did I want to have the title of a "divorcee" but such is life, no one ever said it was easy, or predictable. One of my favorite quotes is "the only thing for certain is uncertainty" and I have found that to be 110% true. So now that is over and I am able to move forward with my life.

I watched a really good movie today before work, "Life As We Know It", if you havn't seen it you should!!!

Right now I am reading "Something Borrowed" and I can't wait to see that movie too!

One of my very best friends Misty Harris graduates from the teaching program at MUW tomorrow and I am so proud of her!!! We have been the best of friends for like 12 years and I love her to death!!

This is a picture of us back in the day when we graduated from highschool, 2006!!! Still best friends!

Well I guess that's about all for now, ready to see my best friend graduate in less than 12 hours and then hit up Market Street!

http://www.marketstreetfestival.com/

Stronger

So as I mentioned in my last post I've been reading the Chelsea Handler books.. I finished "Chelsea, Chelsea Bang, Bang" and I am now on to "Are you there Vodka? It's me Chelsea"

Chelsea Handler is sooo funny!! Even if you don't like to read, if you have a sense of humor I think you will like these books! I'm gonna have to start watching her show Chelsea Lately I do believe! I will let you know what I think about it :)

So I turned in my applications for nursing school and I found out the only thinkg I'm lacking that I have to have is a nutrition class...but MUW does offer a 4 week online nutrition class, I just have to wait until April 4th to see if there are any available spots open still! say a prayer! I talked to the director of the ASN program at the W and she says my grades and ACT score are great so IF I can get in this class, she doesn't see why I wouldn't get accepted into the program!!! No promises of course but i'm gonna keep my fingers crossed and pray! I ate chinese the other night for dinner and my fortune said, "Nothing will get in the way of your success this month" I hope this is a positive sign :) I've been doing pretty good lately, working alot to try and start saving up money because as I mentioned above I hope to be starting school back this summer and if I do, I gotta be able to pay for it! I heard one of the best songs the other day, "A little bit Stronger" by Sara Evans.

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but then I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you an hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby

And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

Day by Day

I finished reading "Not Your Mother's Divorce" it was a good book but i've decided i'm not gonna read anymore divorce books-btw I did get my divorce papers signed and turned in to the courthouse so if everything goes as planned I will be a free woman come May 2nd!
 I did get my application for nursing school for MUW turned in so I just have to wait to see if I get accepted-prob. won't find out until the end of May :( seems like such a long wait.
I've found a new collection of books to read, those by Chelsea Handler, from Chelsea Lately. I just finshed reading "My Horizontal Life" I absolutely loved it, she is so funny!

I am now on to " Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang" so far it is just as good!

I don't know if I've mentioned yet how absolutely wonderful my friends are and how they have been there for me so much throughout my life changes lately. Love you all!

Until next time...



Ch, Ch, Ch, Changes

So like I said alot of things are happening in my life...but hey life is about constantly changing right???
-“The key to change... is to let go of fear"
-"The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live"
-"Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever"
-"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference"
-"Change is the essence of life.Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become"
-"Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely"
- “People underestimate their capacity for change. There is never a right time to do a difficult thing"
                                                             
                                                             MY CHANGES
I got a new phone, the iphone 4 and I am ADDICTED!!! I also got a new phone #, but that is not going online. I moved back home with the parents, for the time being, and in order to save up money and decide on my next step. Wow, I haven't lived at home with my parents and sisters since I was 18...It's not bad at all though, me and my mom are alot closer now, she's one of my best friends. My 13 year old sister is a very sweet kid and I love getting the chance to hang out with her more, she's also one of my best friends.

I've been trying to eat healthier and lose a few pounds because I gained about 12 pounds in the last year and I've been doing pretty good at losing weight just by eating better but I decided to join a gym so I can get myself toned and ready for bikini season! I joined Core Fitness and I love it so far! I've lost 10 pounds and I would be at my goal weight if I lose 2 more pounds but I want to continue to eat healthier and workout because it makes me feel so much better, and who doesn't wanna feel better and look good!
http://www.thecore247.com/

I got a new tattoo and piercing, I know you think I've gone wild right?? But I've already got one tattoo and I have been wanting my Tragus pierced since I was in highschool! Like I said this is about making myself happy and I'm happy with both!



I also have a new hair color thanks to my sister Lisa. She always does the highlighting on my hair and I think she does a great job!  My two best friends in the world Misty and Mandi have been keeping me busy by going out and having a good time everytime I have a chance. They are the best, I know they are just trying to keep me busy so I won't get lonely. I love theses girls!

I found another book that I thought would be interesting that I just started reading, "Not Your Mother's Divorce" by Kay Moffett, it's basically about women who get divorced in their 20's-30's who don't have children or lots of baggage with their ex's and who want to "start over" with their life...sounds like the perfect book for me.

just starting it, but I will let you know how it is. That's all for now, until next time...

One day at a time...

My life is a mess right now. I am working on getting a divorce from a relationship that has lasted 7 years and a marriage of 2 1/2 years. I never thought I would be getting a divorce, especially at 23 years old, but a girl can only take so much. My friend from work, Sara, told me I should read this book "It's called a Breakup because it's Broken" by Greg Behrendt.

I thought it was a great, self help book on breaking up. I will quote it a few times on here.
 Here goes quote #1
"I've been the girl so in love with a person incapable of giving me what I needed out of a relationship that I not only married him but gladly gave away every last shred of my self-esteem to keep him. I've been the girl who not only suffers through an unhealthy, demoralizing relationship but then goes back to it in hopes that time spent apart has inspired him to love me enough to change...or even try. And guess what? It didn't. I've been consumed with despair, confusion, anger-truly devastated by the end of a relationship that I thought was going to last forever."
This sounds just like me and this relationship for the past 2 years. I feel like I put 200% of myself and my tears towards a relationship that only has gotten worse. Yes there were good times, there were great times, I won't deny that but the past 2 years have been a constant struggle and have just exhausted me physically, mentally, and emotionally. This is why I am in great need of a change in a BIG way. It's not gonna be easy, I know that, it's gonna be painful, but a lot of the pain that I'm experiencing now is fear of not knowing what's ahead. This leads me to quote #2.
"We become attached to what's familiar and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable even if they're bad for us. We're afraid of the unknown. So take a deep breath, and realize that this is going to hurt for a while. There is no quick remedy for the powerful sting of heartbreak."
 That's it for now, I'm gonna take this one day at a time and leave you with my theme song for the time being: "Quittin You" by The Band Perry.

I don't know what I was thinking,

You were no good but you could do some fancy talking
I know your tricks and delight for a Gumball Machine (nooo...)
You can keep your quarter man 'cause you won't get nothing sweet out of me

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quitting), quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a girl wants her chocolate, yeah, I know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting you

I don't know what the heck you were thinking
It's gonna, gonna take a better man, I'm bettin, to win my hand,
I'm not gonna play your game, I don't like the high stakes,
I'd rather sit alone at home playin one more round of, Oh man

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting,(quittin)g, quitting, I'm quitting you
Like a gambler leaving Vegas, boy, you know that I'll miss you
But I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and I'm quitting

Cold turkey, giving you the cold shoulder,
Off, like a band-aid, one quick sting, then it's over

I'm quitting, (quitting), quitting, (quitting), quitting, I'm not kidding I'm kicking you,
Cause you're my bad habit and the good lord won't have it,
You're my bad habit and I'm quitting you, you, yeah yeah yeah